Waiting

I know I posted before about my qualms of having another baby and how sometimes I get nervous about how Olivia will feel not being the center of attention anymore.  These fears still plague me but I'm beginning to get more excited.  Olivia loves to say baby and point to anyone's belly which is hilarious.  She'll lift up her shirt and point to her stomach and go baby, baby!  She'll even come over to me and lift my shirt and kiss my belly or lay her head on my stomach.  It's these moments that, even though she has NO idea what she's in for, make me smile and appreciate the fact that she'll have a little sister to play with. 

I'm still so nervous about having 2 kids instead of 1 and how it's going to affect my everyday routine but I'm excited for the challenges and can't wait to see the two of them interact.  I'm also way more nervous about giving birth this time.  I don't know if it's because I know what happens now, since I've already experienced it or what but I'm terrified.  My labor wasn't even that awful last time either.  I guess we'll see what happens though.  Until then I'll relish in the times Olivia and I spend together and try to prepare her as well as I can, even though it's really difficult with a 14 month old to do that.  This baby is coming whether we like it or not.